Stop (Home-brewed Poem)

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The cold wind blows,
Against her cheeks as a tear streaks down,
For once, they thought about how life goes,
About her, reminiscing about the gown,
She wore before walls came tumbling,
Rolling with mass destruction,
"Oh such abruption" thy stated,
While staring at her in white,
She laid there, stone cold,
Dark deep thoughts turned into dices.
Random throwing and guesses
Each path unfolding with great strength
The never-ending tunnel which ended
Connections were finally made at long length
Stop.
She had been awakened, yet again,
with a new mind, a blessing approached her,
Others viewed it as a curse:
"Where am I?" "Who are you?"
Delight fell into darkness,
Darkness had never been so bright,
Yet, he brightness became isolated,
She screamed and ran,
Worried about what she became,
"Nothing was wrong", they said, "Trust me", she heard,
She questions herself,
Standing upright,
Nothing was wrong with her after all,
She stayed beautiful,
Heated up but frozen, though,
Reborn, Eyes wide open.

First Stanza Analysis:
The poem is talking about someone who is trying to find herself, after what society and modern life has done to her. This could mean that the person in the poem is suffering from amnesia, as from the moment she wakes up till the moment she stood upright, she has asked herself several questions about who she was and who others were, for example "Where am ?" and "Who are you?" This could mean that they are in a hospital, watching over her as they waited for her recovery. As such, they stood "reminiscing" about her in a "gown" in the past. An enjambment being used from line 10-15 shows her process of recovery. Her family members may be expecting her to wake up back to normal, however, this shows the girl in her own mind, struggling to find a way out as if though in a maze. For example, she had "Dark deep thoughts" probably thinking about the way she was treated in the past while not knowing where to go in the phrase "Random throwing and guesses". "Throwing" may be used as a word to describe her own emotions, throwing them away one by one, till she has nothing left while guessing the path to take. Just then, she took on a path with "great strength", thus resulting in a "never-ending tunnel which ended" and "Connections being made", possibly her memories. The word "Stop." is used on purpose to disrupt the flow of the poem. This enables the readers to feel the feelings that the girl was experiencing. For example, after finding a way out in a maze in her own thoughts. when she finally saw light, and abrupt stop in the poem is used to show a mislead in direction, or rather a false lead. As such, when she finally wakes up, she did recover, however, her memories were lost. As others viewed it as a "curse", in other people's perspective, it was viewed as a "blessing". This may mean that it was a blessing in disguise to let her possibly take a break from her possibly twisted and dark moments in life and for her to explore and find her true self. An oxymoron is also being used in the phrase "Darkness has never been so bright." This acts as a contrast. As amnesia is thought of as a bad thing, in this poem, it could mean as an escape from reality and a path for finding her own roots. There is always light in darkness and darkness in light. Just then, she panics and runs out of the hospital. Again, an oxymoron is used "heated up but frozen". This shows her readiness to discover more out herself in contrast to her being "frozen" possibly scared about exploring this dog-eat-dog world.


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Against the wind she ran,
A scientist seeking knowledge,
A stranded lifeboat lost at sea,
Still such admiration could be found,
Like the sweet buzzing sound,
Of the honey bees which went "buzzzzzzzz",
Stop.
Life could be so sweet in utter bitterness,
Yet bonds had never been closer,
Nostalgia fills the empty gap,
Or was it simply a deceiving trap?
Backwards she stumbled,
Pain in her head shot her as if though a thousand arrows,
Stumbled and awe-stricken she went,
Standing up straight yet again.

Second Stanza Analysis:
In the second stanza, it describes to girl curious about herself and all that's around her. Like a scientist trying to "seek knowledge", however she doesn't know where to start like a "Stranded lifeboat lost at sea". Still, she could take her time and appreciate the honey bees she spotted around her. Honey bees serve the queen. They have different jobs but still suck out nectar from flowers and are even willing to sting any intruders thus sacrificing themselves if they pose a danger to the hive. Does having such strong "bonds" mean anything? Was life just created for one sole purpose? To serve or to please?What is life itself? Is there any other meaning? An onomatopoeia "buzzzzzzz" was used to show the liveliness of the bees, trying to bring a two dimensional view to a three dimensional view in terms of the girl's perspective. Then, the word "Stop" comes in again. This time, stopping the thoughts of the girl while she painfully recalls some fragments of her memory. This was when her flow of ideas lead her to no where again as a headache strikes her thus "stumbled backwards". And "pain in her head shot her as if though a thousand arrows". This shows that memories can be painful as well. Refusing to give up, she stood "up straight yet again".

Heard chatters and bright lights shone,
Pollutants and animals everywhere,
At least, that's how she viewed them,
A lion approached its prey she thought to be,
But still it bowed its humble head,
Took a step back, and let its prey past,
"How could such art ever been made?"
Followed the lion she did,
As it entered the cemetery,
Grim and black filled, the heart of an empty shell,
Birds hovered over it, laughing they went,
"What beautiful soul, yet such empathy,"
"How could one ever judge one's present?"
"Past"
"Future"
Stop.

Third Stanza Analysis:
This stanza describes her in a possibly busy and noisy a type of city. As "heard chatters" and "bright lights shone". "Pollutants" in this case means factories. technology and cars that are not just polluting the environment but our daily lives as well. Animals means the type of people are made up of in society. Only filled with greed and power. Both lead to the girl questioning herself about her own personality and characteristics. Was she as cruel and bad as those "animals" she thought of? Or was it too late and that life had already polluted her with the fast and modern paced lives.  Just then, she saw a lion. Lion meaning a man possibly with a lot of pride and power. However, instead of pressurizing the weak or making disrespectful remarks at the weak, he simply let's them pass without saying word. This was portrayed in the poem as a Lion giving its prey a chance of escape and not hunting it down. The lion then entered cemetery, showing grieve and remorse for possibly his ancestors. The girl follows and felt empathetic and sorrowful too. Both for the man and trying to find her roots filling "the heart of an empty shell", hollow inside but still felt with deep emotions. She then asks herself how can people actually laugh like the birds hovering over, being so mean at times but other times sweet and loving. Judging people's life even.

Backwards she fell and ran, 
Society made-up of such madmen,
Puzzled and twisted came upon, 
Twisting her thoughts, yet all along, 
"What am I?" "Where am I from?"
Craziness and panic bolted her, 
She ran like a wolf, acted like one
Paused at a temple, at a Church
Even faster than ever before 
Even if it would take her to Earth's core
Nothing would stop her from discovering more
Feelings of red and black blinded her
Prayers went non-stop,
Till the moment she went psycho, 
From the randomness of a roulette, 
She let out her inner demons, 
Stop.
The priest came to see her, 
Wiping away her tears and preaching in hope, 
The monk followed by soon, 
Chanting her peace while she adored the moon, 
Unknown to herself, 
Unknown to her friends, 
To the dark alley she walked in, 
Looking for answers but to no avail, 
A brick came crashing down hard instead.

Fourth Stanza Analysis:
The fourth stanza shows the girl looking for someone of something she could trust after the past encounter with the Lion and the birds (Powerful people and nuisances of society). She was shocked at the society she was living in as stated "Society made-up of such madmen". This could suggest that the girl had a strong sense of rejection living in this type of society. To make things worse, she couldn't even remember what she was or where was she from. "Puzzled and twisted" may suggest the difficulties putting back the pieces of the puzzle together again due to her exposure in this twisted world. She then runs to find someone she could trust like a "wolf", acting like now as well. This focuses on her desperation and like a wolf, she followed her natural "instincts". The girl then tries to find her identity through religion, at a temple and in a church. An enjambment is used again, and it shows how much she was willing to sacrifice to find herself, by going to "Earth's core." The colors red and black are then used. "Red" representing hatred and rage in this case, while "Black" represents death. "She let out her inner demons" may suggest that she unveiled a darker side of her, the side whereby society hardly sees. The priest then prays for her as "prayers went non-stop" followed by a Monk which "chants" for her. Afterwards, she released that all this lead to nothing as stated "Looking for answers but to no avail." Then, a brick knocked her hard in the head. 

She woke back up back in white with tears in her eyes, 
Warmth turned back into coldness, 
People staring into her own rights, 
She wished reality was all that but a dream, 
Her mum touched her flesh, 
"I love you", "We were so worried" mum went, 
A crooked smile from mum she saw, 
Remembering her role to play, 
In the Lion's tragedy, 
The cold wind still blows.

Fifth Stanza Analysis: 
The fifth stanza shows her back in the hospital. It also shows that she had regained back her memories and reflected upon previously when she had struggled to find them. As such she wished that "reality was all that but a dream" suggesting that she hated the way the world works and how dearly she wished that living in it had been a dream instead. "In the Lion's tragedy" may signify the importance of not judging other through their social status, instead, through their identity and who they were as a person. "The cold wind still blows" suggest that things were still the way they were, despite suffering from amnesia and recovering. She still lived in a messed up world filled with beauty the world took for granted and hasn't yet seen.